Find a church that manages to recreate the glory of God within its walls... sets up rules... doctrines... hierarchy... specialist meetings for every age and etc... and what you will end up with is a place with some level of control.
Part of the fun of setting up an aquarium or greenhouse is to control the environment within and hope you can keep the contents alive. Outside the tank... in the estuaries and the sea... the fish are happy and free.
Douglas Adams was a very famous atheist. I used to hate him for it. Now, after reading his journals and books many times I respect his belief and I really love the guy - dead as he is. He really saw the utter ridiculousness of religion and God. That Earth is actually a long running program is how I see churches. Billions of people running around in confusion and trying to work out the meaning to the question to the answer of the meaning of life... victory, loss, mistakes, learning, redemption, sacrifice, faith.. all part of the program.